Is wanting (but not currently or ever suffering from) an eating disorder an illness within itself
would the root problems of this be the same as that of an actual eating disorder? if not, what else do you think can spark this desire?
Answer:Hmm, well I think I can sympathise. Here we go, this is my story: it started a little while ago when I started College. I had bad body image problems but nothing major. I spiralled into depression rather rapidly, out of nowhere. As a result I skipped a few meals. My depression lifted but my 'thing' about food increased. I came to hate eating, being around food. So I avoided it more and more. Till I was loosing say 3 or 4 pounds a day. My friend, who is a recovered anorexic, fortunately kicked me out of it. Soon I had dropped 2 dress sizes and a few stone. Then the compliments came in and all the benefits. I came to love what I had become- a skinnier me. But I wasn't really happy. Now, this is all within the space of a few months. Right now I'm 'healthy weight' urgh, and I hate it. My parents are constantly getting me to eat and put on weight. But I continue losing.
I can sympathise with this urge to have an eating disorder. Because I hate being a healthy weight, however bad it sounds. Thin is just not good enough. I regard eating disorders as a form of control, deep down inside I am jealous. Because they can do what I can't. I simply can't get thin enough, they can. So, I do think that it is some form of illness- wanting an eating disorder, because I can tell you now that I am ill. If you are like me, if you can delve deep inside of you, you will know yourself- you can feel it.
You've too much time on your hands. Get busy doing something.
If someone has a terrible problem with weight and felt she couldn't control her appetite for example, she might fantasize that it would be "great" to be anorexic. Of course it wouldn't be; it would be horrible. But the person might imagine that it would be easier to lose weight if she had anorexia. So that could spark this desire.