Im soo sick of being depressed
Meanwhile, eat a lot of dark chocolate. It helps to reduce depression.
Being this depressed isn't good physically or mentally. I almost had a breakdown not long ago from depression. Start with your medical Dr. and he/she can prescribe an anti-depressant, don't be scared to tell your Dr. what the problem is. There are lots of good anti-depressants other than Prozac, And if a medication makes you gain a few pounds the mental relief is worth it. You also should find a counsellor to talk to who specializes in depression. I'm not ashamed to say I take a anti-depressant or that I see a Therapist. Please get some help, you sound young , don't let it eat you up. Good Luck
I know how you feel about being embarassed about admitting that you need anybody else's help. That, in and of itself is a very real fear that I deal with every day of my life.
But, I also know that there are some things that you just plain cannot do for yourself, even after having studied up on them and read all abou them for, in my case years and years and years.
But, my advice would be for you to temporarily forget about the possibility that you might be suffering from clinical depression, and not talk to your primary care MD about it, but that you start to see an endocrinologist about getting a whole array of testing done.
The reason that I say this is because I have been misdiagnosed with clinical depression for years and years and years, when apparently all it was is an uncommon electrolyte deficiency and a hormone deficiency.
Stay away from psychoblabbers until you have exhausted all your other options for electrolyte and hormonal therapy.
Neither of those two options will cause any significant change in weight nor nervous activity (that I know of).
Either way, no MD can FORCE you to take any meds without a court order, so it will do no harm at all in talking with an endocrinologist about it. It might just be as scary for you as it has been for me.