Im soo sick of being depressed
Your best bet is to see a doctor. AND BE HONEST WITH THEM! They can't help you accurately if you withhold information. And always remember, what you say to your physician is protected by law. It's no one else's business!
Good luck!
Don't be scared of the doctor, sweetie. You obviously need one to help you get over this depression. I know this because I have a mild case of it and it is NO fun. Nope, not at all.
Anyway, I'd suggest sucking it up and going to your doctor anyway. He will pick a medicine that will suit your needs. Just remember that the good will outweigh the bad because you need to get this out of the way.
Don't take any medication, they have side effects and are addictive. I think you are doing great getting tired of it and trying to get over it. From personal experience, I suggest that you find a hobby, an artistic one, like dancing or drawing, or start voluntary work at an animal shelter or children foundation. You'll realize how lucky you are and how it is unfair to feel depressed, while you are blessed with health, love, etc.
Don't be silly - go to a psychologist ASAP. No one can force you to take drugs, it's up to you. The doctor will tell you about side effects and whether you should worry about them.
Depression can be caused either by a chemical imbalance in the brain or by problems in your life. If it is the latter, then you don't need any drugs - you meed to change your life. Make sure that your depression is not the result of spousal abuse or neglect, marital problems, lack of friends or social support, etc.