Im 29 and the main problem i think i face most out of my disorder and that i think will be hard to b

is inner rage through all the 16 years of suffering this disorder, ive found this the most problem. i was recentley diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and i await therapy. but im worrying whether or not ill be able to have this problem treated. does anybody know how you treat it and whether it can be treated? ive suffered alot in my life, bullying, mainly mental at high school. victimisation, by street gangs, incarcerated in a psyche hospital for 18 months. i used to have uncontrolable rage outbursts where id lose all sense of my surroundings accompanied with the powerfull impulse to ' act out' lash out, hit out, bang, punch like a complete fit of enragement. i realise if i dont deal with this problem above anything else, it will destroy my life, and it frightens me. it doesnt take alot, to affect my mood and send me on the turn, and fill me full of jaw clenching rage with the strong impulse to do something about it. im not very tolerant of peoples ways and it worries me

For borderline, the counseling of choice is DBT or dialectical behavior therapy, which is a nuts and bolts intensive therapy class that teaches you skills on regulating your emotions. There are also drugs that will help, but you will have to ask a psychiatrist for that info. When you go for counseling, make sure you don't blow off the therapist, I've seen lots of people do that (I took sort of a DBT lite group to help me with my bipolar). The methods are tried and true with other people with borderline, so don't think you're too smart and know better that it won't work. Give it all a good try, they are skills that need to be learned.