Im 100% serious i need ur help

I was in deep depression for 3 years i told my perents everything im put on prozac and stuff

but over this year ive been feeling down, im heading back into depression becuase i treat the best family i could ever ask for like complete **** i feel bad becuase i stole $20 of my mum every now and again to buy drugs, and i keep saying to myself ill pay her back but i dont know how to do it, and im up to oweing her $340

after all shes done for me i still steal money off her to buy drugs

also i feel bad that they my brother was a complete computer nerd that was all good but i feel bad my perents dont know hes gone to doing drugs every day i dont mind that i just feel like i wish they could know these things, i have a slight case of altism and that makes me care about things more than others and makes me slightly emotional

i just want to know how do i get myself out from going into depression again and how do i get my perents to know this and pay my mum back

Please help

It is good to see that you indeed do feel guilty about what you are doing. There is still goodness inside of you. God still loves you and you can still ask God for forgiveness. Try going to church at least once a week and you will definitely see an improvement in your quality of life. Ultimately, you have to make the decision to help yourself. Think about these verses from the bible that were written for all of us. I hope that they can strike a chord in your life.