If you care please read Is it ok that people ignore me, how should I deal with my depressed state

I've been sad for two months now. I cry a lot. I believe that some people ignore me because they think I'm psycho and others ignore me because I am constantly sad and have dark circles around my eyes. How can I get through this college semester without doing something irrational? I usually don't believe, but is God there? I'm taking buspar for anxiety. I'm pretty damn sad and am coming closer to failing. People stay away from me and that's how I want to be treated and I don't at the same time. I'm a lonely untrustworthy person. It would take a month for me to get a psychologist, by then it would be to late. I am ugly in so many ways.

I am wondering how old you are, not because age has anything to do with how you feel, it is just that I was 23 when I felt the same way. I not only was distrustful, but I believed that I was totally unloveable. I truly believed no one could ever love me.

Honestly, and I think you know this, you are sending signals to others not to bother you. You are doing both consciously and unconsciously. So they are not going to invade your space.

But being in your shoes, let me tell you, you cannot continue this way. As desperate as you are right now, you MUST get some help. Before you do anything drastic, please promise to go to the emergency room. They will help you immediately!! They will get you with a psychologist.

May I also suggest that your uglyness may only be your perception and when you get better, all those ugly spots will be made better.