If i think i have Inattentive ADD that means i probably do huh

That's why Straterra may be a non-narcartic solution for you as well. I only take the Conerta because of the side-effects of Straterra. It works differently in a way that is a cousin to anti-depressants like Paxil or Zoloft but it is a different chemical.

All this being said I care enough about your question to be open and honest because I spent a long time in a cloud of confusion for whatever reasons battling a couple of failed marriages, and battling myself in the wrong way with a therapist here and a therapist there when there was simple a dopamine problem in my noodle that modern medicine has been able to help some.

You need the courage to get completely testing --- blood tests, family history, a whole series of questions and discussion designed to help figure out what you need. All that is required is not shame or embarrasment of something you think is wrong and you're tragically stuck. I spent 30 or so years like that and then I had to swallow my pride and see if I really had this problem.

I'm better for it. I'm not 100% all the time, and there are still times where the medication can't resolve things I've become over time, but now I can see things more clearly as to how I get in certain frames of mind. I can observe myself more objectively, and be more open to something that is nothing to be ashamed of, but just something a doctor that was good enough help me figure out.

It's all about adaptation, you're life will always be adapting to its surrounding for as long as you breath air so the trick is to go along and help those adaptations and stand tall in your journey to help resolve how things like this can be treated if you're truly honest and open for the help. Keep the search up until you're looking in the mirror in the morning, and you can say you're a good person, and that you're going to have a good day. The medications won't do all of the work but without really trying to get some help the adaptations will be higher and higher hills to climb and by asking the question, I can tell that you already don't want to be a quiter. I believe in you because we're human beings, that are sympathetic and compassionate, and care about each other in the all the lost connections, and diverse amount of distance that this Internet affords us. You can do it.