Ideal song
But your question is about music, so I will share with you some favourites. I would suggest you listen to the Smiths, there's no-one like Morrissey to make you feel you are not alone in being miserable and his irony can only make you feel better, he's great at putting horrible feelings into words. Or the album 'gold against the soul' by the Manic Street Preachers, especially La Tristesse Durera or From Despair to Where:
I write this alone on my bed
I've poisoned every room in the house
The place is quiet and so alone
Pretend there's something worth waiting for
There's nothing nice in my head
The adult world took it all away
I wake up with same spit in my mouth
I cannot tell if it is real or not
I try and walk in a straight line
An imitation of dignity
From despair to where
From despair to where
Outside open mouthed crowds
Pass each other as if they're drugged
Down pale corridors of routine
Where life falls unatoned
The weak kick like straw
Till the world means less and less
Words are never enough
Just cheap tarnished glitter
I try and walk in a straight line
An imitation of dignity
From despair to where
From despair to where
A cripple walks in a straight line
An imitation of dignity
From despair to where
From despair to where
But again... do talk to someone about the way you feel. Take care, I hope you get better soon
Please see if these songs can help. They have helped me.