I think im crazy insane ive lost the plot how come nobody sees what i see in the mirror

i see deformity and disfiguration someone help me i have already tried to end my life as im so ugly like really repulsive and i dint nknow e=what to do any more im so scared of the outcome of my life i dont sleep anymore im lost alone isolated desperate im not an attention seeker it is what i see truly i know i may gett on some of your nerves but it is very real to me and is very debiliating and horrible i dont know what or whom i am any more i jsut dont know can any one help im cracking up in my tears all alone with just a candle for some light im breaking down every night and every day what is wrong with me please what is it i see and others dont help me i dont know how to post a link and i wouldnt want to scare you to death with my horrendous facial apppearance have you any advice how do overcome what i look like

Whether your deformity/disfiguration is as bad as you think it is or not you really need professional help. Get to your doctor and get a recommendation to see a therapist/psychologist or whoever it is you need to see to help you. If nothing else you will have someone to talk to instead of sitting home alone worrying yourself sick. You don't say if you have family or friends? What do they say? Once you get into your therapy session they will help you see yourself in a better light (no pun intended) and if your appearance is such that it makes you mentally ill/suicidal they can refer you for corrective surgery if that is what is required. What is wrong with you is that you don't know where to turn for help - get to the doctor, tell him/her your worries/problems, don't hold back they can't help if you don't tell them everything. Go on make that appointment and get a bit of hope back into your life. Best of luck.