I think i finally get it now
i have been depressed and felt like no one cared about me and i was unloved and had feeling of self hate. i was also wondering what i did to deserve this and felt abandoned by everyone even god. I felt like even he didn't care about me anymore and i was even worthless to him. Well last night i turned to god again and for some reason i felt closer to him that i ever had before when i was praying. I actually had tears in my eyes because i was so happy that god was there for me and i knew he loved me. This has actually made me feel alot better. The medication i have been on for about 4-5 weeks might be kicking in a bit too to help me.
Now im just wondering how to strengthen my relationship with god. Every time i get down i just think of my relationship with god and i get happy and smile.I think god may have put me through depression to strengthen my relationship with him. I feel i needed to get that off my chest. Its just the best feeling ive ever felt in my life.
Answer:continue to be willing to speak of traditional religion
no matter how offended some group members may be
overcome the bias against the word: God
the great force of our spiritual roots lies in tradition, like it or not
continue to be wise in modeling your spiritual behaviour and live in harmony with spiritual values
there is a way of knowing, higher than reason; there is a self, greater than egocentricity
you are demonstrating the power of selflessness and the unity of all creation
good for you...spread the word and the feelings!
I going to advise you that you try to help in some manner other people, maybe older people in the stores to reach for items for them or to just make them feel that you are there for them or been polite, or any thing that can steal a smile from other people.
Yes, your meds are kicking in. It takes up to 6 weeks for meds to work on depression.. Congratulations are wanting to know God better. He is wanting to have a relationship with you too. Talk to Him in prayer about anything and everything all the time. I have mental conversations with Him when I am around people.(don;t want people to hear me LOL) Ask Him into your heart and to be your friend..thats all you do and wait the journey will be awesome. He helped docs invent meds for depression, start by thanking for this invention...He can't wait to know you better!!!
I think that is wonderful!
I am so happy for you!
Keep praying and read your Bible. It sounds like you are on your way!
Might be a good time to start shopping around for a spiritual or religious group to hang with...
Your meds are working now and you have the emotional strength to open up to God at this point.
I am so glad you are feeling better. Keep up the good work- it is important not to skip meds and to continue with a regimen that is working.
You are loved always by someone somewhere. ;)