I need of help

i am addicted to opiates and im struggleing to get cleen and stay cleen! ive tryed rehab and prison but i find myself back in this boat i ve been to aa and other groups but continue to fail. i am slowly killing myself and realy need help ,or support ,or something! is there anyone willing to help me some one who will listen? please help !!!!

Honestly, I know I don't really understand the addicted brain. I suppose my worst addiction is to food, but I know that with a little effort, I am the master of that. I don't really know what it is to be the hostage of a chemical addiction. But I have known people who are, and I sympathize with you.

I don't know that I have any brilliant advice. Nothing that doesn't sound trite or preachy. But I believe that you need the mindset that says, I am bigger than this thing that is trying to eat me. I don't exactly know how you acquire the mindset except, literally, by practice. Over and over and OVER you tell yourself that you are bigger than it and you can be doing something better than slaving yourself to it. Put a picture in your head of what you would rather be doing. Even if it's just mowing the lawn or taking out the garbage--these are normal, everyday things that decent people do, and as long as you're doing them, you will not be feeding your addiction. Then find more to do. Got a job? Go to work and make yourself better at it than anyone else there. Have the remotest interest in anything--do you like dogs? Go to the library (a physical place, which requires physical interaction with books and people--keeps your body busy, unlike the computer, which invites you to suck coffee or chocolate or drugs while you're sitting there) and learn everything you can about dogs. Volunteer at a local animal shelter or vet's office. Keep yourself busy.