I have anorexia

My friend needs help:

help me. i don't want to start eating, i did once and i gained weight and wouldn't stop. i am 5'0 and weigh 95 now. my lowest weight was 86. i don't know what to do i still look f*ckin fatt!!! what the hell is the matter with me. my parents won't call the physcologist, they're trying to be the doctors. i can convince them to get help. they think they know it all. they're making me eat, and it's driving me nuts, and to figuring out way for me to throw out the food. i'm soon gonna become a bulimic if this doesn't stop. i have attempted to throw up alot, but failed. please someone help! I can't just start eating, even though i know my metabolism has slowee down, i can't just start eating. I've tried many times, but now it's almost as if i don't want to recover anymore. maybe i don't. :( please help me. I'd rather die skinny and happy. :'''(

anser this as if i were asking it. because she needs to read it. please. I'm her best friend and she asked me to post this

Well if your goal is to die skinny, congratulations because that's exactly where you're heading to. Forget about the part about being happy though, that's something you'll never be - as long as you're living with this illness without fighting it. You said it yourself - no matter how under-weight you are, you still think you're "f*ckin fat".