I have an addictive personality, and am addicted to Ritalin What should I do

I don't share my addiction with anyone. Not even my wife. For years, I have abused Ritalin. It is prescribed by a physician, who seems to be clueless.

It's not uncommon for me to take close to 100 miligrams aday. It makes a dramatic difference in my life. When I take it, I feel passionate, energetic, and motivated. When I don't take it, I feel the exact opposite. I failed out of 3 schools prior to taking it, and once I started taking it, I graduated with a 3.5 GPA. I'm actually going to finish my MBA from a good University this Spring.

At work I am productive while on Ritalin, and a bum when I'm not on it.

The Drug takes it's toll. I often feel depressed at the end of the day from being on it. It makes my heart rate beat at 100 beats per minute, even when I'm just sitting at my desk. It can't be good for me.

What can I do? I don't want to go back to the failure that I was before taking Ritalin, but at the same time, I don't want to be addicted to drugs.

Unfortunately medications for children work the complete opposite on adults.-ie Ritalin slows down hyperactive children and hypes up adults,acting like SUPER SONIC SPEED !

FIRST OF ALL...

STOP! Stop taking more than you've been prescribed at a time.TAKE AS DIRECTED!

You are NOT alone as there are many others like you who have become addicted to it!

SECOND...SEE YOUR DOCTOR & SEEK PROFESSIONAL MENTAL HEALTH for help with your addiction & addictive behavior!Discuss this with them immediately!