I have a 2 year old girl but at the moment feel tormented - 1 For not appreciating my own parents 2
that I can provide for her and guide her into a healthy/happy adult.. 3. It feels in a way like I am stuck back in the past too - with the same malaise/craving something and not knowing what..the way I often did as a child yet my parents did all sorts for me etc
Really want to break the cycle but my daughter and I are very isolated and life at the moment just seems so pointless.. I just keep thinking of all the heartbreak ahead of her and of all the heartbreak I caused my own parents and both sides are weighing me down to the point I am a week plus behind on my degree course..
I don't know if it is the shock of full adult responsibility hitting me or what but as I say at the moment I feel like I am just going through the motions with my wee girl and feel dread for the adolescent years..when my folks are gone.. etc
Perhaps knowing how disappointing family life was for both my folks has affected my own psyche - neither were happy and both clinically depressed..
Answer:Let go of your worries, (yeah, I know easier said than done) and try making amends with your parents. That's the first step.
Now remember that your girl is not you, but she will try you later, now even.
If you feel you need someone to talk to, don't hessitate to click on my profile and write to me. I promise to be non-judgemental and I would try my best to be a shoulder to lean on.
Best wishes
I seem to understand your parents are still with us so make up to them now and yes you are stuck in a warp so just turn your mind around and start to see your parents happy /you and your babe also/ and gradually it will all come together Good Luck Lovey your not isolated there are lots of good folk around you so reach out to them
Oh honey, this is so normal. Honestly. I've never known a woman not go through this after having a child.
