I hate myself What i can do get rid over this feeling

my love left me, my sister cheated me and she thinks i am her enemy and left our home 1year back ... there is no one whom i can share... even to whom i trust most and need most that is my love,,, but he also left me and i am feeling so hated that nobody loves me... nobody is there in this big huge world from whom I can have a sense of security and who can ease my pain... i am feeling isolated

i feel like nobody needs me, i am useless even though i devote my whole to save my relationship with him...

i hate my life , i hate my self ... i cant concentrate on my studies.. even i try to cry so that i can feel little better but tear doesnt come out. i am feeling heavy heart...

Your love leaving you is not a reason to hate yourself :( I know it is hard to get hold of the fact theyve left but you shouldnt hate yourself for it. As for your sister, thats her problem, not yours. It doesn't sound like you've done anything wrong. Just try and be pleased that you are in the right, let her be how she is and leave her to it. Maybe if she thinks you're her enemy, send her a nice letter explaining that you are not and you loe her very much?, and maybe tell her how you feel, no matter how much you think she doesn't care - tell her how you feel and say that you feel like she is the only person you can talk to. This should make her feel like more to you than she originally thought.

I know it's hard to concentrate on your studies when things like this are going on - whilst I am writing this I am skiving a college lesson because I have things going on which make me feel really s**t and I know I can't concentrate. This is a bad example. Please, don't let the upset win and ruin your studies/life. You need to try and be strong becaue, hopefully, the grass IS greener on the other side.