I feel so depressed I am only 13 I want out

I have been so sad and depressed lately. At school my teacher asked me what was wrong and even told me I looked depressed. I told her I was fine even though I was hurt on the inside. She sent me to the counselor and I told her I was fine too. She didn't believe me but I wouldn't break down and tell her. She only let me go because I had good grades and couldn't think of anything else to do. My teacher hasn't said anything to me sense. Now I wish she would. Now I just want help. I don't care what I have to do. I just don't want to go to her and tell her because I am too shy but I do want her help. She was the only one of my teachers smart enough to know I was depressed. I not close enough to my parents to just come straight out and tell them. I don't know what to do anymore. I am afraid if I don't get help, I will do something stupid and hurt myself. Please give me suggestions on what to say to my teacher or how to get her help.

Hi tennisluver,

It is good that you have turned for advice. You are right indeed, you are still young~~and as it is, you have still a lot to learn. It is not entirely your fault~~you are born in a particular generation and time and with some kind of peers and environment. Actually, it is far more than meets the eye.

I hope you are understanding what I am saying. There is a Chinese calligraphy which is interpreted as "chaos" and as the same time, it is accepted to mean "opportunity" as well.