I feel like I am the most screwed up person in the world I do not know what I have

I see a shrink every couple of weeks and he tells me the truth, I am selfish. I told me I am on disability and he said it is because you are bloody disabled. He tells it like it is. He put me on rivitril taking 2 per night to make me drousy to help me sleep. I love the drowsy feeling. I am the black sheep of the world. I am ok one minute and get angry at my mother the next and other people. I am very bored with my life and I have anobsession with cancer so I can get out of this life and go home to Heaven. I have though about suicide before but I do not want to end up in the pit, so that is not an option. I sometimes get up late as I am tired. My shrink will probaly try me on other medication, but I want a drowsy feeling so I will not be tempted to abuse people who start on me, and I usually make sure I finish it and have the last say. Is anyone on here similar? What do you think I have. My mother tells me I am selfish. Have I a borderline personality disorder? What does this sound like

Leanne is a troll with a different fake medical complaint for every day of the week.

Hey nut case, do you remember sending these to wannabehippy? She posted them here:

http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index;...

Hello wannabahippy (wannabahippy),

From: Leanne M

Subject: cancer

Message: By the way I do have bowel cancer. You are a rotten little wretch. You are definatly hell bound. Hell awaits people like you. You do not know me, than goodness, otherwise I would be tempted to knock you right out. You are pathetic, the way you Judge me. What the hell have you got against me. Shut your mouth, because one day I would not be suprised if somebody knocked you right out. Go take your sarcastic approach somewhere else, because to be honest nobody wants to here it. You little gutter snipe.