I feel like I am losing control

I used to have to live on medications to get me through a day, but at that time I was also in a very physically and mentally abusive relationship. I have since left got my self off meds and met the best guy in the world who supports me in my depression battle. However, lately my new doctor gave me some new anti depressants and I told her I knew what worked and asked for scrips to tose drugs, she refused telling me to try hers first. They made my anxiety worse and I felt very tired all the time, and since I have a physical job I weaned my self off them. Now, I am slowing feeling myself get worse every day and my old doc can't see me for 2 weeks, how can I make it through without breaking down?

Also, why would my depression and anxiety be coming back when my life is so perfect? I have a new 3 month old baby, great daughter who helps alot, she is 12, and a wonderful loving husband? My life is completely opposite of what it was 7 years ago with the abuser. Any help would be great.

Well you know that there could be some issues still that you have not hit on that is bothering you with out you even knowing, and being in a abusive relationship, well for 7 years that can really hold on to you, so maybe you are not done working through, that on neither. You should of called the new doctor too and told her how the anit depressives was making you feel , she really needed to hear about it, she might of changed it for you then to what you wanted.